Are you losing your soul?!!!

Holidays ≠ Rest

I've been waited desperately for this summer holidays since the first day i started the previous semester. It might be sounded kind of saddening 'cause it seems like campus life is all about sufferings for me, which I cant wait to get rid of...

Yeah, it finally comes, 3 months of summer holidays, but I'm still as busy as usual, but the different thing compared term times is that I enjoy what I'm doing, what I'm busy in, and most importantly a time for me to relieve from the stress of school...

Meanwhile, busy in church ministry, church camp next week, practicing for band performance, doing my free lance by computer servicing and DIY computer (want to know more? click here), editing the software development project with a primary school, supporting that primary school on the software, developing my freelance website, picking up multimedia design, and a lot more... ha... but I do enjoy it, seriously =)

Well, but I won't forget how I went into backsliding stage before. The path to backslide is simple, quite standard... When you're overwhelmed by what you do, you feel alright, you feel that you can handle, then you'll face problem which you can't overcome, 'cause we're weak man after all if we don't stay in God (Jn 15:4-5 Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it remains in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. I am the Vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, the same brings forth much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing. (MKJV))... then you'll feel that God is not with you, you feel depressed, lose your faith... when you lose your faith, then you backslide, then gone case... But, the crucial point is how sensitive and alert you are during the initial stage of backsliding, if you know you've to abide in Him at all times, you'll pray and you can keep the faith...

We're human, human is not perfect, what you do might be important, but nothing is more essential than your personal and intimate time with God, if you feel that you're overwhelmed by what you're doing, "take a break, have a chit chat", not to who but to Him la. ha...Don't be the one who gained the whole world but lost himself.

...encourage you; encourage myself...

Lord forgive us when we get consumed by the things of this world,
That fight for our love, and our passion,
As our eyes are open wide and on you.
Grant us the privilege of your world view,
And may your kingdom be, what wakes us up, and lays us down.
(taken from Tobymac - Lose My Soul)

The Battle belongs to the Lord

I know the time is running out, but why am I still standing here doing nothing, let the evil one carries on its conspiracy?!!! Oh God, am I wasting the life that You have entrusted on me? Lord, I really 'bue song' to see the evil one takes away the people around me!!!!!!!!

It has been quite a long time I do not feel heavy-laden when I wake up in the morning. Today is different, I felt terrible, terrible sad, as if somebody beside me has passed away. I did not understand why, until I returned to my yishun home this afternoon. I was traumatized when i saw my aunt, who was a Taoist, was doing the Japanese chanting with my uncle, finally everything seemed so clear to me. I knew spiritually, I lost someone...

Recently, my aunt went to see doctor after a period of struggle with the abdominal pain. It was diagnosed that she has some kind of ovarian tumor inside, and she'll go through an exploratory operation at NUH tomorrow morning.

Sometimes, as a christian, we really have to grab hold of every chance to preach the gospel, and win the lost soul for Him, because if we don't do it, the evil one will do it... In one night, monday night, my aunt decided to join my uncle, where I knew God has given me a lot of chance to preach to her, but I did not grab it.

I prayed for forgiveness, I asked God how, because I really despair of my failure to be a christian. But He told me, now is still not too late, this is an alarm, a warning, that I should stand up. And now it's just the beginning of the battle. Therefore, I should not be afraid, I should not be dismay, but to really put in effort in praying and live a life that is driven by the purpose of preaching of the good news...

It's a fight back. It's a declaration of battle. And it's a battle belongs to the Lord, for He has won it on the cross 2000 years ago. Now, I know I am here to win, to reclaim the lost soul...

2Ti 4:2 preach the Word, be instant in season and out of season, reprove, rebuke, exhort with all long-suffering and doctrine. (MKJV)